As I approached the day we would meet our rainbow baby, I felt increasingly anxious and ((hello)) scared. My heart was broken from losing our son last year and I didn’t know if reading birth stories was going to help or hurt – did I really want to know about other peoples birthing pains? Close calls and interventions? Surely it would just freak me out even more…. Eh, I normally loved birth stories so I went ahead and read a few. Actually, the more I read, the more relaxed I became. I can’t tell you how many I consumed in the weeks leading up to her birth! These stories not…
Pregnancy After Loss // Expecting Our Rainbow Baby
As I’m sitting here in complete awe, wonder, and insanely deep gratitude for the new life growing inside of me, I often reflect on the events that brought me here with my growing rainbow baby. After losing our son Michael last year, I experienced a whirlwind of emotions – many of which were so ugly and scary my heart literally aches when I think about it or imagine another mother in the same situation. Nevertheless, even with all the ugly, so much beauty and growth came from that time in my life.
One of the best things about having an oversized family is that no matter if its pizza on a Tuesday night, a bonfire on Friday, or Thanksgiving with the crew, any time spent together is always bound to be slightly chaotic but always a good time. The other awesome thing, is when you have any big announcement to make you instantly have a party! We decided to break the news of nugget #2 to my family on Thanksgiving. We were taking family pictures, as we attempt to do every year, and we thought it would be fun to tell everyone during pictures! I had quickly made a sign and the…